trying to reach

I've been quiet. I know.

It's just, i don't know what i want. And everything feels difficult to reach.

Now the feeling is i'm nothing. I'm dust on the floor where people walks like they don't have worries.

Happily.

I want a home where i can invite people to have fun. Drink wine, eat good food, laugh, cry, dance and feel that they are okay and everything's fine. And leave a smile on their face.

The Barracudas- I saw my death in a dream last night

does not always have to be a social

Hey girls, hey boys!

I'm relieved. I'm disappointed in myself.

I'm happy. In love.

I'm tired. Very tired.

I need something to get excited about. First I need to find my brains.

Best party song at the moment.

YAY!

Long time no see.

yap yep. so must to do. no time. but i'm alive!

I'M ON FIRE!

tell me something nice.

I want to run for so long that my heart stops.

Time just runs. 

I'm just floating and thinking that the day will come when i'll drown.

Too much to do.

Don't try to catch me when i'm running.

Blurred vision.

Lost motivation.

Laziness.

Everlasting headache.

Yelling for myself. Do better, do better.


Keeping this inside me.

Smiling.


Light a cigarette.

Underwater breaths

It's so sad. That i recognize myself in those.

You love me, but i'm not sure of that. I feel myself so outsider.

I can't say "change your friends." that's cruel, it's me who is being asshole. But i can't do anything about it if i don't know how to be sarcastic in every conversation. fuck this and fuck that.

haa haa haa.

ha

ha

HAA.