Lost again

I'm so lost right know.
Lots of guide talks and information makes my head dizzy. What i do? It's so hard to breath. I just want to scream. My hands are shaking.

I want away from here. So badly. Run away from this boy which i have huge crush. He did some bad things but i just can't get him out of my mind.

Crying doesn't help, but i can't do anything about it.

I hate to write on this blog.