Can you do something for me for a change?

Oh now i just want to say FUCK YOU FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! he was just playing with me. Then i run so fast outside and cry a lot. why me? why is this happening to me? i'm so lonely and jealous and angry and sad. where i can find happines.
And i did it again, i readed those stupid horoscopes and i'm sad that i saw only one fucking star to sunday and i'm going to ruisrock that day.. that can't be bad day! and i will have fun that day, that it is worth of money. Oh why i do this to myself, tell me, oh tell me. Can you say to me that life is great and you shouldn't worry every fucking thing! say it! that i believe!

Oh i wait that my friend comes here and she bring some cigarettes that i could smoke my brain away. And be more clueless than now. not cool at all!

Friend gave me some fabrics for free! i was heaven! That blue mermaid fabric is so amazing but really don't know what i'm going to do with it. i will figure it out soon! And bought some plastic flowers and try to do headband. jei!
I think i want third cup of coffee.

Adventures everywhere

Haha life is so funny and some people too.. Friday was exciting day overall, group of hot chicks and few cowboys went to the coast and the idea of celebrating my birthday. I didn't know anything and they say now it's Indian theme and lets slice it my shirt and put some few feathers on my head. I liked it!

It was so beautiful down there! i was happy. I also invited my crush down there and the feeling in my stomach was awesome! But i'm so question mark to whole thing! or i say this way, i don't know what he is thinking about me! what to do? hey all of you love ambassadors, help me! oh i'm so pathetic!
But anyways it was best time! I can consider to publish pictures of the evening. We were so wild!

Morning was also great we eat breakfast at the pier and cut the super yummy cheesecake. Perfect!

I have one awesome story to tell you, but now i'm too tired to tell it.

WAVE WAVE

Oh i have lots of stuff in my mind. Questions to which i can't find answers to, projects i should start and finished them, dreams i need to plan and think the time when i would implement them and shit i just want to delete out of my mind but i just can't.

Oh i just love dynamo strobo lights and new roads what i found and just want to walk again and again.

Feeling right now is..
i want to disappear












sea-biologist

Lotus flower

Hey! I think i have lost my brain totally!  i don't know what is happened. i just get this shit over me, that's cruel! My May day was full of carnation cigarettes, black crisps, lots of blood from my nose and confused presence which is maybe probably due to the fact that I had not eaten anything. and I just drank a lot. That's why my ribs are showing and my boobs are gone..

I sometimes forget to breath

sea-biologist

I think i'm okay.. i'm trying to be, i realized that worrying about things and peolpe it's just waste of time, but why anything nice and happy don't happen to me?

I mean love

I must say that last night was pretty great, i sneak out and went to dancing. And oh boy i danced so much, almost two hours non stop. i couldn't breath, but still keep going..