Walk with me

Holiday. Little bit sad, because my best mates graduated today. And i will stay there half a year. With whom am I going to laugh now and drink coffee. Almost tear came out.
I'm also afraid that in Spring i must do so much work. Do i have powers to that.. ou dear.

But here's some what i have done. Night gown or what ever.. and i re-done collar and pockets. I like.

times when don't feel like

Hi there! First of all, i look like a duck. duck duck duck. new glasses.

I feel so sad. I've been thinking, do i make myself sad? Or am i just pushing good things away. Or bad things just comes to me.

Fuck.

I think i have to be quiet and alone. No harm to anybody.
But i don't want to be quiet and alone!!  But when i open my mouth, i sound just like a duck..

I want to do something. I have to get cigarette smell out of my room..
What's wrong with me?

Sadness is my boyfriend

Old film camera shots.

I miss those times, i wish i could go back and be different.

I miss you. Where are you? How's everything going?

How can I find the right words?

I have terrible back problems.
Painkillers doesn't help. It's hard to sleep.

Friends doing bad choices.

Lots of tears.

I don't know how to help, because i don't handle myself either.  

You sold your tongue than you can talk to the whales

Feeling so sick..
I must be able to sew tomorrow.

Things aren't change. Still going through the same shit.

Everything i touch turns sour.

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The girl on the bridge, 1999

This movie is most beautiful movies i have seen. So breathtaking (watch the video) and i cried tears at the end.
Now i want to cry more.

Can you do something for me for a change?

Oh now i just want to say FUCK YOU FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! he was just playing with me. Then i run so fast outside and cry a lot. why me? why is this happening to me? i'm so lonely and jealous and angry and sad. where i can find happines.
And i did it again, i readed those stupid horoscopes and i'm sad that i saw only one fucking star to sunday and i'm going to ruisrock that day.. that can't be bad day! and i will have fun that day, that it is worth of money. Oh why i do this to myself, tell me, oh tell me. Can you say to me that life is great and you shouldn't worry every fucking thing! say it! that i believe!

Oh i wait that my friend comes here and she bring some cigarettes that i could smoke my brain away. And be more clueless than now. not cool at all!

Friend gave me some fabrics for free! i was heaven! That blue mermaid fabric is so amazing but really don't know what i'm going to do with it. i will figure it out soon! And bought some plastic flowers and try to do headband. jei!
I think i want third cup of coffee.

Pretty good question

I can't breath, breath, breath...

So much pain.

I just want to go away. And if i go, nobody would care or call.

I'm not feeling well.

I thought that everything would go well and i would be happy. NO NO NO! what i even think about.



















I'm just jealous to everybody!