Pull the string out of my back if you wanna talk.

So.. New year, new page, new things. Cliche.

My mind is just same. but i'm so happy those others who have been able to turn their minds to blank page. And start to fill it with new things.
I'm just messing my old page with happy stuff but also oppressive stuff.

I..

ouh nothing.

Listening Brigitte Bardot. It's the sax.

Je T'aime.

I'm also middle of clothing crisis. puke for that.

times when don't feel like

Hi there! First of all, i look like a duck. duck duck duck. new glasses.

I feel so sad. I've been thinking, do i make myself sad? Or am i just pushing good things away. Or bad things just comes to me.

Fuck.

I think i have to be quiet and alone. No harm to anybody.
But i don't want to be quiet and alone!!  But when i open my mouth, i sound just like a duck..

I want to do something. I have to get cigarette smell out of my room..
What's wrong with me?

Blank look

Eyeballs yuck. watching somewhere pointless shit.

I don't know where's my brains, i lost them again, i don't know where my mind is. 

Something is totally missing..

Why won't you make up your mind?

haha, now you can laugh..

I found those glasses and i think they are nice, but i don't see damn thing with those. I don't say that fault is in the glasses, fault is in my eyeballs or brains. what ever.
I wished that those would be my reading glasses, but i don't need one. Or i can just pretend that i use. haha haha haa

what i'm talking about..
i hate that my sewing machine is gathering dust on my table, and colourpencils and paintbrushes. Maybe autumn and coldness will give me power.

I need hugs and kisses. I love goose bumps.   

I want to puke

 Oh sad face, what a miserable. Why some people are cruel? I'm being nice and funny but what have i done? i don't get it. I just got shitty messages back. Oh fuck. He's so gorgeous, maybe i'm too non cool for him or his friends. I have to got something else to think! And i need to found something to do, sitting in home, alone is killing me right now...

Camel safaries

Yep still dirty room and i realized something again.. when i paint, i look at it and then i bite my fingernails badly. I don't know why i'm doing that, maybe i'm nervous that it will get ruined or something.

Now i'm greatful that i still have fingernails because i think my painting is ruined. Damn skin colour...

The human looks like manatee.

Don't leave me this way

I just published this because of that song, it's so motherfucking amazing!

The trees, like lungs filling with air

I bought goods which i don't planned to buy. I was planned to buy fabrics, but i didn't found pleasant ones.

TOWARDS INFINITY AND BEYOND

 I'm depressed and i'm trying to get with the kaleidoscope to another world where i wouldn't be depressed.