(sighs)

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night

Is when I search for the light
Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, fight dark forces
In the clear moon light
Without fear... insomnia
I can't get no sleep

I used to worry, thought I was goin' mad in a hurry
Gettin' stress, makin' excess mess in darkness
No electricity, something's all over me, greasy
Insomnia please release me and let me dream of
Makin' mad love to my girl on the heath
Tearin' off tights with my teeth
But there's no release, no peace
I toss and turn without cease
Like a curse, open my eyes and rise like yeast
At least a couple of weeks
Since I last slept, kept takin' sleepers
But now I keep myself pepped
Deeper still, that night I write by candle light
I find insight, fundamental movement, uh
So when it's black this insomniac take an original tack
Keep the beast in my nature under ceaseless attack
I gets no sleep
I can't get no sleep

I can't get no sleep
I can't get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep
I need to sleep, although I get no sleep

 

-Insomnia, Faithless

Lately i've been listening that album a lot.

I'm feeling little bit lost. I want to find my creativity and excitemend again. I need it.
Maybe i have to just sit down and start.

I wear all the time black. Am I going into depression?

I'm going to take a shower.

Pull the string out of my back if you wanna talk.

So.. New year, new page, new things. Cliche.

My mind is just same. but i'm so happy those others who have been able to turn their minds to blank page. And start to fill it with new things.
I'm just messing my old page with happy stuff but also oppressive stuff.

I..

ouh nothing.

Listening Brigitte Bardot. It's the sax.

Je T'aime.

I'm also middle of clothing crisis. puke for that.

Life feels better when Elkie sings in my room.

Christmas is past now. It went pretty nicely and i got lovely gifts. Books mostly.

I found a cute little suitcase for my art supplies and i bought today Elkie Brooks best album. Love is playing in my room now. oh oh oh .

breathing breathing breathing.

Walk with me

Holiday. Little bit sad, because my best mates graduated today. And i will stay there half a year. With whom am I going to laugh now and drink coffee. Almost tear came out.
I'm also afraid that in Spring i must do so much work. Do i have powers to that.. ou dear.

But here's some what i have done. Night gown or what ever.. and i re-done collar and pockets. I like.

cruise ships, ouh dear.

Result from wild cruise ship. ha ha ha it hurts.
Maybe it's best that i'll be quiet and don't say a word.

In my head, somebody just knock there. do do do. remember remember remember. think think think.

I'll go sleep now.

Seahorses sailing in my head

Feeling is like that. headache. too much coffee, cigarettes, school, annoying people, dirt on the floor...

Kick me.

But what makes me happy. That i'm spending time with one awesome guy.
I look like him in that picture.. I'm wearing his shirt and we have almost the same glasses :D ouh gaash.

Could we pass Christmas? I don't have any intrest on that. I could only eat.


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