Give me one more change

I WAS ON FIRE! Bloc party, metronomy and two door cinema club was so great! and oh snooooop double g o d, i just danced in the mud. i let the beat float in my body and scream the songs out of my mouth and just enjoy! Oh now i have to take my single-use camera to the camerashop and wait excited my photos. but that must be my luck that i pay lots of money and i'll just get black photos... oh we wait, then i scan them and i'll show it to you.
But now listen this, i can't get enough.

Humans are so weird, all the time fucking question marks

Pretty excited about tomorrow! all thought there is no heart burning bands but the feeling must be great! if you want to! and i want! woohop woohoh hoh oh! 

The feeling on Thursday was pretty much what that picture can tell you.. it was so so so... i think i don't want to tell what was my feeling, so embarrassing.

Can you do something for me for a change?

Oh now i just want to say FUCK YOU FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! he was just playing with me. Then i run so fast outside and cry a lot. why me? why is this happening to me? i'm so lonely and jealous and angry and sad. where i can find happines.
And i did it again, i readed those stupid horoscopes and i'm sad that i saw only one fucking star to sunday and i'm going to ruisrock that day.. that can't be bad day! and i will have fun that day, that it is worth of money. Oh why i do this to myself, tell me, oh tell me. Can you say to me that life is great and you shouldn't worry every fucking thing! say it! that i believe!

Oh i wait that my friend comes here and she bring some cigarettes that i could smoke my brain away. And be more clueless than now. not cool at all!

Friend gave me some fabrics for free! i was heaven! That blue mermaid fabric is so amazing but really don't know what i'm going to do with it. i will figure it out soon! And bought some plastic flowers and try to do headband. jei!
I think i want third cup of coffee.

Olkoon menneksi

Mitaah Mitaaah?

kuolen häpeään ja osaankin aina pilata kaiken! juuri nyt juuri nyt voisin ihan mitä vain! Kunhan kaikki menisi hyvin, miksei hän vastaa vaikka valo näyttää vihreää ja vielä inhottavampaa kun palstassa lukee "Nähty 21:24"
Kaikki oli eilen vielä ihanasti kunnes aloin jankuttamaan ja kaaduin longboardilla... miksi en voisi elää pilvessä koko ajan. pusujen taivaassa jossa vatsassa tuntuu aivan ihanalta.. nyt tunnen kipua takapuolessa ja ruhjeisessa kädessäni.

Maybe everything is all right... or not

Hola! I'm alive! All thought i'm losing weight because i'm so stupid that i forgot to eat. reason is i'm at my friend house five days because she went to London. I have two lovely dogs here and i have to take care of them. That's hard, i'm so powerless.. but still like in it.
First day was so weird, i couldn't sleep.. clock was 3am and i was fresh like good orange juice, but what happened then. I can't believe it, one hell good looking guy calls me and asked where i was. and i said here and then he comes here about two hours ago. And i was still fresh like good orange juice and he was so so so fresh. oh dear. then we talked, i dance and we listened beach house. And then we gone to sleep. I couldn't sleep.. he's so gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous. oh oh oh.

now i drop from the cloud castle...

My bike is stolen and i got terrible hangover and cough. uuh where is the orange juice.   

Little bit more action please!

Time just run away, i need power! soon i don't have any time and then i will shame myself and then would kill myself or just run as fast the time goes.

But i can't write and tell about myself and what i want and what are my skills. And i don't like to call strangers, because i must be the one who have to talk. And i have big plans on my mind and i want it becomes true, but i need help. maybe i call to my dad.

I don't even has plans for Midsummer and i'm afraid to ask people what they do. It would be nice to celebrate that. But luckily i have good wine, i can drink that by myself and think things. again. and night surfing!



Dancing could help. I hope this pointless manatee shit text stops soon!

Pretty good question

I can't breath, breath, breath...

So much pain.

I just want to go away. And if i go, nobody would care or call.

I'm not feeling well.

I thought that everything would go well and i would be happy. NO NO NO! what i even think about.



















I'm just jealous to everybody!